Nurture Your Vulnerable Self

 “She held herself until the sobs of the child inside subsided entirely.

I love you, she told herself.

It will all be okay.”

 —H. Raven Rose, Shadow Selves

I can guide my clients to fully self-heal only if we work together with their vulnerable self (aka our inner child). Discovering and healing our vulnerable self can be the most touching, special, profound, and challenging work we will ever engage in. Living and growing as human beings can be such an interesting experience. As children, we control very little. It can be frightening to grow up in a family that feels unsafe. (We can also grow up feeling unsafe even if we didn’t experience abuse or violent trauma.)

Many family dynamics can cause us to feel unsafe. Here’s a short list: if our parents fight with each other (either outwardly or through passive-aggressive behavior); if caregivers judge us harshly; if we don’t feel loved or accepted or if ignored and left alone too often; if we grow up in families with addiction; if we experience or witness abusive behavior; if we grow up in families with depression and anxiety; if we have an emotionally or physically unavailable caregiver . . . the list goes on.

Through a combination of my own inner child work and clinical experience with my clients, I have observed a connection between the unhealed vulnerable self and physical dysfunction as an adult. As children, we learn who we are by how others treat us. We don’t realize that our caretakers might also need to heal their own vulnerable self. We believe they know better than we do, and we take how they treat us or what they say as both valid and the truth. As a result, we often blame ourselves or feel unworthy. If we don’t learn to re-parent the little one inside us, we tend to create a cycle of unworthiness—we choose partners who treat us as our caregivers did and/or we end up in jobs with supervisors who mistreat us, and we believe that it is our fault because we believe we are unworthy. We feel unworthy, so we live from a perspective that perpetuates the cycle.

One of the main intentions behind creating this Metaphysical Cleanse focuses on helping people break this emotionally painful cycle, allowing us to heal our physical dysfunctions and to learn to live in joy, peace, and happiness.

Below is an example of one of my teaching concepts. Please don’t worry if a particular example doesn’t match with your own childhood experience. The important thing is to be willing to connect with your own vulnerable self in whatever way is meaningful to you.

Driving the Bus

In my work as a Metaphysical therapist, I often notice that when clients don’t heal their vulnerable self, the child ends up “driving the bus.” What does this mean exactly? Imagine you own a bus and five-year-old you takes charge of driving— would you consider this appropriate? Definitely not. If we haven’t connected to our younger parts (plural because many different ages require connection and healing), we often react unconsciously from a child’s perspective. The child inside us ends up driving our lives and directing its course. Imagine this child driving the bus with you in the passenger seat (along with all the younger versions of you at different ages)—that’s how most of us live when we (unknowingly) fail to heal and integrate our vulnerable self.

We often choose inappropriate partners because unconsciously something about them reminds us of our childhood caretakers, or an unhealthy relationship modeled in front of us. With our vulnerable self in the driver’s seat, we might feel (again unconsciously) that by choosing a partner who resembles our primary caretaker (who didn’t meet our needs) our new partner-caregiver will give us the love we always wanted—and then we will feel worthy and loved.

But do you see the problem? We often choose partners based on an unconscious immature and wounded image of what our “perfect” savior looks or feels like. Of course, it doesn’t usually work out the way we want and hope. And when our new love inevitably fails to live up to this ideal, we feel confused and hurt—often repeatedly picking similar people. Sometimes we have unrealistic expectations of current partners who lack the capacity or desire to love us the way we want. We cling to a misguided belief that the source of our happiness exists outside us. We believe that our hearts will be healed if only we can find “the one.” If you do believe this, I have some challenging news: No-one will ever heal our past wounds, love us in ways to help us feel worthy and loved, and make our past experiences all okay—because that can come only from within you.

Some of you might protest: “Wait a minute, Stephanie. That cannot be true. I know friends or family that do have that type of relationship and it does exist—what are you talking about?” Fair enough, so let me explain. Yes, people do fall in love and support and care for each other throughout their lives—but only when they both are healthy enough to sustain a healthy relationship. Relationships work because each partner takes responsibility for her or his own wounded past (including but not limited to healing their vulnerable self). Relationships work also because each partner cares about and commits to the wellbeing and growth of the other. The key to a successful relationship involves each partner taking responsibility to heal and integrate his or her own vulnerable self. In other words, the “ideal” we seek lies within us, not as some image we project onto our loved one. Trying to live up to someone else’s projection can sabotage any relationship.

Now for the good news: We can achieve the love we desire by re-parenting our vulnerable self. Ultimately, what we seek lies within. And, of course, our partner can support us as we do our inner work—and vice versa.

If any of the following sounds like something you have experienced, you may well benefit from healing your vulnerable self:

  • Wanting our partner to behave a certain way so we feel comfortable within ourselves. For example, if I get mad because my partner doesn’t do something in the timeframe I expect, I impose my values and expectations on my partner. In short, I try to control them. Instead, once I ask my partner to do something and he/she accepts, I must let go of how and when it will be done. If I cannot do that, I must do it myself. If suggesting this brings up feelings of resentment and “I have to do everything myself,” then we need to look at the part of us that has to have everything done the way we want in the time we want.
  • Perhaps your partner does not express their feelings, demonstrate love or appreciation as you would like. You might even go as far as issuing an ultimatum: your partner must demonstrate love as you expect, or else you cannot stay in the relationship. Well, that may be true; however I would suggest that you heal your vulnerable self before choosing to the leave the relationship. I understand that deal breakers do show up in relationships, but, most likely when you first chose to be together, your partner had exactly those qualities you now detest—in fact, if they (unconsciously) reminded you of one of your parents, the qualities or behaviors you now reject probably formed part (perhaps a major part) of your initial attraction. Now, you expect him/her to be different and this sets you both up to fail. This does not mean, however, you have to live without getting your needs met. My point: when you heal your vulnerable self your needs may change or you might be able to accept your partner for who they are.
  • You may have an actual child you don’t understand or vice versa. Because of limited communication, you feel like you live with a cranky stranger. Even though we might want to impose stronger limits and rules onto a child like this, we might be reacting to our own childhood wounds. When we heal our vulnerable self, we can become a more understanding, effective and compassionate parent.
  • Do you havea difficult and overly critical boss who has unrealistic expectations? It’s not pleasant to be around someone like this. Quite possibly, that job/boss is not a good fit for you. Before you quit, however, I would encourage you to participate in some internal healing. Chances are your boss possesses qualities that remind you of someone from your past. Allowing ourselves to see the gift of the trigger (see below) can bring up feelings that otherwise may lie dormant.
  • Think aboutyour friendships: Who bugs or angers you? Now consider the possibility that he/she mirrors something in you that you would prefer to deny. For example, perhaps your friend likes things her own way, and tries to control everything. Now ask yourself: “What areas of life do I try to control?” If you didn’t also possess this quality (something about yourself that you dislike) your friend’s desire to control wouldn’t bug you as much. Instead, you might simply feel compassion for the challenges she creates by being controlling. Some friendships come and go, and others last a lifetime. I always encourage people to learn what they can about themselves before they let a friendship go. Often when we shift within ourselves, relationships we once considered unacceptable become acceptable, even enjoyable.

I could come up with many more examples, but these will help us to begin identifying where to focus our internal healing work. When I encourage clients to heal their vulnerable self, they often ask, “How do I do that?” Great question! It’s not as hard or daunting as it might seem.

I discuss the following topics in both my book and my sacred healing workshops:

  • Identify your vulnerable self.
  • Re-parent/redirect/reassure your vulnerable self.
  • Sit in the discomfort of your vulnerable self’s feelings.
  • Identify triggers from others—and learn to recognize the gift of the trigger.
  • Use the “Healing Mirror” 
  • Embrace grief and sorrow.

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Stephanie Kato
Stephanie Kato
Metaphysical Intuitive Healer

About the instructor

            Stephanie Kato is an intuitive healer offering metaphysical colonics, bio electric lymphatic drainage and craniosacral therapy. She feels blessed to have worked at many different colon hydrotherapy clinics over the years, including The Allred Technique with Connie Allred (the woman who founded the International Association of Colon Hydrotherapy and was instrumental in making colonics what they are today).

            As a practicing therapist since 1996, Stephanie created a style of healing combining metaphysics and cleansing. As a result, Iyasu (which means “to heal” in Japanese) was born. Should a client wish to engage in a Metaphysical Colonic, Stephanie encourages him/her to share emotional experiences of stress and disharmony in their lives as they physically release. As they do, an amazing thing happens - the client feels relief (emotionally and physically) and they start to connect how their physical body holds onto emotional, mental and spiritual issues in a way that may be creating dysfunction and illness within them.

           It is this unique combination that inspired Stephanie to create an online school where clients can learn different self-healing lessons at their own pace. 

            Stephanie recognizes true healing can only come from the individual, and works with clients by showing them how to shift their mental, emotional, and spiritual perspectives with the intention of healing their body, mind and soul.

            Stephanie considers it a great honor to serve each client and believes that what occurs in the healing rooms of Iyasu is very deep and sacred work.

Stephanie has written two books that will be available soon:

Embracing Love by Letting Go: A Metaphysical Cleanse

Embracing Life by Letting Go: A Guide for Therapists

The most profound and meaningful changes are the ones we discover within ourselves. Acknowledging, validating and loving the precious part of you that experienced your childhood will literally change your life. No longer will you look outside yourself for the love and acceptance you need. When you develop a close relationship with this part of you, the adult you is all the little one ever needs and really the only one that will satisfy its deep longing for the love you've always wanted. Ready to change your life? 

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